Earlier this evening, our string quartet played at Van Gogh is Bipolar, and this has got to be one of the best and most memorable moments in my life. I'll try not to sound too sappy in this post, but I don't know if I can help since I'm quite overwhelmed at the moment. I'm at the point of being unable to express anything through words, so I'll just let it flow.
From Jetro. These are my treasures now. One of the sweetest tokens I've [and the quartet] received. It was our greatest pleasure playing for him. |
On a happier note, there are also a lot of ups in taking up your passion as a profession. You worked hard for something, you almost bled to death practicing so that you'll have the skills to perform, and you've made others happy while you're also happy playing for them. In VGIB, we supposedly played for food, but there's more to it than just filling our stomachs with gastronomic food. I felt like my soul was filled to the brim with happiness. Just happily making music with your friends, and seeing how happy the listeners are -- it's something unexplainable. And of course, the sincerity of the owner, Jetro, his friends and customers, I wouldn't trade that for anything. I was on hiatus from the world for the past few weeks - blankly going around while doing my duties. I felt detached from myself, and so out-of-sync with everyone. At first I had a tough time coping and delving into the pieces that we played, but the sense of familiarity - of playing with my closest friends - brought me back. A few nights ago, I played with the UP Orchestra in a concert at the Abelardo Hall, and I remember trying to smile after the concert. My lips were actually shaking as I tried to keep my smile in place for the pictures. I felt blank and empty. But thank God, I think this night brought me back. I want to remember this feeling - this sense of fulfillment and utmost bliss as a musician and as a soul. I want to grasp this memory and never let it go.. and to keep on feeling this way. Even though I looked like a fool, smiling for over an hour while looking at a stamp, a pin, and a sketch that I've just tucked away in my memory box, I'm happy and at peace with myself at this moment. I feel high and drugged, and I don't wanna go down again.
P.S.
If you haven't been to Van Gogh is Bipolar, take some time for yourself to visit the place. This is a place that feeds your soul. And it's not just the place that's worth visiting. It's owner, Jetro, is one of the sincerest and amazing people I know. His smile will calm you down if ever you feel like freaking out because you don't know what you are doing.