7/9/2006 --

let me say goodbye, for i won't see my love for a time
my heart shall bleed with want, and my soul shall tear in sorrow.
the days seem longer and the wind grows ever colder.

i seek for his presence though he doesn't seek mine.
i thought i have let go of him. still,
a wish echoes in the depths of my soul

his presence, still in the walls of my mind.
- a mere echo but it is still there. Echoing.
causing happiness yet pain - such feeling of sweet suffering.

i wish to be let go of, yet i do not want to let go.
to forget.
to move on.

i am still filled with yearning and longing to feel his love.
but i cannot have him for his heart is not mine
so let me say goodbye though this heart of mine will never say